This Hex Upon Our Heads

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This Hex Upon Our Heads 23:36

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Wake up to the same nightmare every fucking day
A brief moment with a smile on my face
until I remember who I am and where I'm at
Sun cuts through the window
There's no fucking hope here
How did I get here? Why am I so angry?
Who chained me to this?
That's the joke
I fucking did it
I wake up every morning,
walk down the same path
Bite back the same bitter words every fucking day
I pray you never know the blackness
The cold hatred that I feel every time I look in the mirror
There's nothing there
Not a man, not a human being
An empty hole, a blank existence
A fucking failure
Just another coward walking through life without the fucking courage to do anything about it
Every morning when I wake up and I'm still here
I'm so vastly disappointed in myself

There is no happy ending
No flowers
No hope
No love
Cursed by our own consciousness
We stride across the earth, self-aware
Unconvinced that we can settle
To eat, and fuck
Blind idiots, weeping into our own open hands
Each of us leaves behind a legacy of scars
Gritted teeth
Scarred with the marks from every battle
That's the joke
I chained myself
I chained myself

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released April 6, 2023

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Auditor Chicago, Illinois

DEPRESSION
ENTROPY
EMPTINESS
SUICIDE
AUDITOR

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